Living life to the fullest

As most of my good friends know, I lost my job last Wednesday. It has been extremely depressing and hard for me, but after going to the doctor with my mom today, I feel like maybe I have been too much of a whiner.

I went to Dr. Beck's office(oncology doctor) with my mom. She did not want to go alone today. We got there with my Aunt Linda and mom went back and did all her blood work, which turned out good, and then went back to see Dr. Beck. He is such a sweet and kind doctor. He had mom laughing while he was going over the tests and stuff with her. He answered every single questions and didn't leave until she was fully satisfied. She then went up to the chemo unit to get her chemotherapy. There were sooo many people there ranging from all ages, even a 10 year old boy getting treatment. Mom took her seat and they got her all hooked up and she got four bags of chemotherapy medicine. She sat there the whole time with a smile on her face, talking to patients around her trying to make them smile and feel better. She not once complained or grimaced or anything. She was super sweet to her nurse and just showed what being strong is all about.

I left there today thinking that there is really nothing I have to complain about after watching her today and the attitude that she chose to take during these last 10 years of her treatment and diagnosis. If my Mom can be that strong and happy, I feel I owe it to her to be strong and lift my head up and know that God has a plan for me. I just have to pray every day for him to lead the way.

Mom, if you are ever able to read this post, please know how much admiration I have for you and how much of a hero you are to me, but most of all, how very, very much I love you for who you are. I love you Mom......

If you are ever having a bad day or feeling sorry for yourself, I suggest you visit one of these oncology centers and see what is an ordinary day for some of these patients. I guarantee you will leave with a different attitude and outlook on life. Trust me, I did.

As some of my friends know, I have been not feeling well for quite a while. I ended up in the hospital Sunday and was not doing well and ended up on morphine, which is absolutely crazy on you if you have never had it. Hallucination City!!! Anyway, went and saw Dr. Norys today and he thinks that I have a hormone disorder and is testing me for that right now. In the meantime, I have been put on three different medications which two I took this evening and it seems to already be helping quite a bit. I just love my new doctor!! He seems to really know what he is doing. That's when I don't mind paying the copay!!!

I don't like how people lead you on and tell you that they really like you and care about you and then the next day they act like they don't even know who you are. I don't like people who aren't true to themselves. I don't like rap music. I don't like chicken livers. I don't like running out of my favorite alcoholic beverage. I don't like being tired.

That's all I can think of right now besides the fact that my "give a darn" seems to be busted. I knew I liked that song for some reason. It has been one rough weekend.

I was feeling very dejected and stressed today, even though I had a fabulous weekend. I went home this evening, not in a very good mood, and my sweet 6-year-old says "Momma, its all right, you are my bestest friend and I love you." She almost brought tears to my eyes. She always so sweet and knows just what to say when mommy is having a bad day.

Colt was being a sweetie too for a 14-year-old. I got extra hugs and kisses from him tonight. He is growing up so fast. I love them all so much!!!

I miss my Jessie and Steven who are with their dads right now.

Today my cousin Drew and his girlfriend Julie, had their sweet baby boy Wyatt. Wyatt weighed 2lbs 15oz. He needs lots of prayers right now. He is doing well and so is momma, but still needs our thoughts and prayers. We are blessed that he is here and glad that they are both doing well right now.

I am going to my cousin Drew and Julie's baby shower today. We are very excited that Baby Wyatt will be with us soon. Julie has had a very hard pregnancy, but has kept her strength, hope, and courage throught it all. I hope they have a great day today and get some really cool stuff to help them bring Wyatt into the world! We love both of you and hang in there, he's almost here!!

This is kind of a sad post today, but I just wanted to let the Keirseys know and Bethany and Matt Gillham know that I am thinking of them today and my heart, thoughts, and prayers are with you.

The Keirseys two month old daughter, Avery Mae, went to be with the Lord this week. I have only seen pictures of this precious baby, but she is very cute and a lil fighter til the end.

We love all of you and God bless you and Miss Avery.

1. I am constantly amazed how I can come home having the worst day and my four sweet babies just have to say "momma" and makes my day all worth it. They are the sweetest gifts that God can possibly give you and I absolutely adore mine!
2. I love that I have friends that will tell me what they think, but will also be there to give me support and encouragement when I need it!
3. I love getting the exciting news that my baby sister is pregnant again and I am going to be an auntie!! I love nieces and nephews because you can spoil them rotten and then send them home! HAHA!
4. I love my mom who is holding up a good fight with her cancer. She is my hero! Love you mom!!
5. I love my daddy who always makes me laugh no matter what mood I'm in.
6. I love my sweet babies: Jessica, Colt, Drew, and Tesa.

I have never understood trying to be nice to people and them acting all nice to you and then turning around and stabbing you in the back. I'm not the type to tolerated two faced biased hypocritical people, my temper just won't allow it, but I will this one time because I truly think that carma does come back to haunt you, and one day this person will have to answer for all the turmoil and stress they have caused. Hopefully they will repent before God gets a hold of them.

I have a very sweet friend that I work with whose name is Bethany. Her sweet baby boy Jack would have been two years old today, but went to heaven at the young age of six weeks. I have seen pictures of him and he is the most handsome, beautiful lil boy. I just wanted to send all of my love, thoughts, and prayers to Bethany and Matt and her two beautiful daughters, Lexi and Kelsey. You are doing great things in honor of Jack and helping many other sweet babies and their families. I know that he is extremely proud that you are his parents.
Love you guys!!

Happy 4th of July

Don't have much to blog about today, just wanted to wish everyone a very Happy 4th of July! We are blessed to live in a country where we have our freedom and the right to do as we please. Thank you to all the men and women who have served or are currently serving in the military that are allowing us this right. My heart and prayers are with each and every one of you.
We live in a beautiful country and I am glad to call it my home.
Happy Independence Day!!!

We always have someone to look up to from the time we are born and even into our adult years. I am lucky because I have two people that I feel are heroes and have shown me what strength is all about.

The first person is my mom. She was diagnosed in 1999 with breast cancer. She had to have a mastectomy and lymphectomy and then rounds of chemotherapy and radiation. On top of that, she was also taking chemo medicine by mouth. She never complained about the treatments, or losing her hair. She still had time and energy for everyone that came to see her even her grandkids. At her five year mark for remission, she was helping my baby sister who was pregnant with her first child, my sweet nephew Jorgen Anders, and as she was walking into Sarah's house she fell on the porch and immediately started screaming. My sister called 911 and they rushed my mom to the hospital. After they got her there and did xrays, they found out she had broken her hip and thigh. They proceeded to do surgery the next day and when they were done came out to tell us they were sending part of her bone off because it didn't look right and the fall she had should not have shattered her hip and thigh the way it did. While she was recuperating, we got lab results back and was told that my mom had bone cancer. We were all devastated! My sweet, strong Mom simply said " We will beat it.". Ten years later, she is still fighting her battle with bone cancer. She is still taking chemo which zaps her and the chemo has spread, but she continues to stay strong and have such a great attitude that you can't help but believe that she will beat it.

She is any amazing woman, my hero, and the best momma in the world. Thank you for making me strong Mom, and I love you very, very much!!

My second hero is my Daddy. I have always been a Daddy's girl since I was little. He would practice softball with me and made me a darn good pitcher throughout even my adult years of playing ball. He was diagnosed a couple of years ago with lymphoma cancer. He has had to take treatments and been put on alot of medicine, but also stays confident that he can beat his cancer too. He is always in good spirits when I see him or talk to him and the most amazing Daddy in the whole world! I love him to pieces! Keep fighting Daddy!

Please pray for all those out there with cancer that we will find a cure for every single type and stop this horrible disease that puts so much suffering and even death on those that we love and care about. God has many miracles, we just have to be willing to accept them whatever they are.

I bought my young daughter some fake tattoos the other day, 60 in all, and she taught me a lil lesson, do not leave a 6 year old with 60 tattoos because they will be all over her body! That's right, she used every last one from the top of her lil nose to the tops of her toes(pretty talented to pull that one off!). It was the absolutely funniest thing I have ever seen in my whole life and she was extremely proud of them. She thought she was an artist! I thought "yeah, a tattoo artist!". I sometimes miss childhood for this simple fact, you get up every morning only to think about what you might do or play that day. Its the simple life. I also like it because at this age, they are completely and brutally honest. You always get a direct and unbiased answer whether you like it or not!

Anyway, cheers to childhood and my "lil tattoo artist".

My friend Bethany told me about a site called "Cutest Blog on the Block" where you can get free backgrounds and layouts. They have some really cute stuff there and hopefully you will like my new background. I will try to keep learning how all this works and get some more interesting stuff on my blog. Come visit anytime!

This is my first time to blog. I thought it would be fun to keep up with friends and have them keep up with me. With four children, I stay so busy it is hard to keep up with myself much less everyone else. My friend Bethany, got me hooked. She has a really cool page. I will try to come up with something more interesting next time I'm on. Like I said, this is the first one. Bare with me.