Living life to the fullest

As most of my good friends know, I lost my job last Wednesday. It has been extremely depressing and hard for me, but after going to the doctor with my mom today, I feel like maybe I have been too much of a whiner.

I went to Dr. Beck's office(oncology doctor) with my mom. She did not want to go alone today. We got there with my Aunt Linda and mom went back and did all her blood work, which turned out good, and then went back to see Dr. Beck. He is such a sweet and kind doctor. He had mom laughing while he was going over the tests and stuff with her. He answered every single questions and didn't leave until she was fully satisfied. She then went up to the chemo unit to get her chemotherapy. There were sooo many people there ranging from all ages, even a 10 year old boy getting treatment. Mom took her seat and they got her all hooked up and she got four bags of chemotherapy medicine. She sat there the whole time with a smile on her face, talking to patients around her trying to make them smile and feel better. She not once complained or grimaced or anything. She was super sweet to her nurse and just showed what being strong is all about.

I left there today thinking that there is really nothing I have to complain about after watching her today and the attitude that she chose to take during these last 10 years of her treatment and diagnosis. If my Mom can be that strong and happy, I feel I owe it to her to be strong and lift my head up and know that God has a plan for me. I just have to pray every day for him to lead the way.

Mom, if you are ever able to read this post, please know how much admiration I have for you and how much of a hero you are to me, but most of all, how very, very much I love you for who you are. I love you Mom......

If you are ever having a bad day or feeling sorry for yourself, I suggest you visit one of these oncology centers and see what is an ordinary day for some of these patients. I guarantee you will leave with a different attitude and outlook on life. Trust me, I did.

As some of my friends know, I have been not feeling well for quite a while. I ended up in the hospital Sunday and was not doing well and ended up on morphine, which is absolutely crazy on you if you have never had it. Hallucination City!!! Anyway, went and saw Dr. Norys today and he thinks that I have a hormone disorder and is testing me for that right now. In the meantime, I have been put on three different medications which two I took this evening and it seems to already be helping quite a bit. I just love my new doctor!! He seems to really know what he is doing. That's when I don't mind paying the copay!!!

I don't like how people lead you on and tell you that they really like you and care about you and then the next day they act like they don't even know who you are. I don't like people who aren't true to themselves. I don't like rap music. I don't like chicken livers. I don't like running out of my favorite alcoholic beverage. I don't like being tired.

That's all I can think of right now besides the fact that my "give a darn" seems to be busted. I knew I liked that song for some reason. It has been one rough weekend.

I was feeling very dejected and stressed today, even though I had a fabulous weekend. I went home this evening, not in a very good mood, and my sweet 6-year-old says "Momma, its all right, you are my bestest friend and I love you." She almost brought tears to my eyes. She always so sweet and knows just what to say when mommy is having a bad day.

Colt was being a sweetie too for a 14-year-old. I got extra hugs and kisses from him tonight. He is growing up so fast. I love them all so much!!!

I miss my Jessie and Steven who are with their dads right now.

Today my cousin Drew and his girlfriend Julie, had their sweet baby boy Wyatt. Wyatt weighed 2lbs 15oz. He needs lots of prayers right now. He is doing well and so is momma, but still needs our thoughts and prayers. We are blessed that he is here and glad that they are both doing well right now.

I am going to my cousin Drew and Julie's baby shower today. We are very excited that Baby Wyatt will be with us soon. Julie has had a very hard pregnancy, but has kept her strength, hope, and courage throught it all. I hope they have a great day today and get some really cool stuff to help them bring Wyatt into the world! We love both of you and hang in there, he's almost here!!

This is kind of a sad post today, but I just wanted to let the Keirseys know and Bethany and Matt Gillham know that I am thinking of them today and my heart, thoughts, and prayers are with you.

The Keirseys two month old daughter, Avery Mae, went to be with the Lord this week. I have only seen pictures of this precious baby, but she is very cute and a lil fighter til the end.

We love all of you and God bless you and Miss Avery.